i don't like making decisions.
at all
if there are other people around - i tend to shy away from making the decisions;
i don't like being the one to decide plans that involve other people
i don't like choosing the radio station when others are in the car
i don't like choosing what to wear for events when i don't know what other people are wearing...
stuff like that tends to stress me out...
when i'm by myself i can generally decide what to do with my night or my music or my clothing choices... but those are small and can be contained...

lately i feel like life is running me in circles - i think it stems from being interested in too many things. life would be easier if i wanted to one thing and i wanted to do it in one location and that was that... however i'm easily distracted and i don't know what i want...
do i:
do jr in may or spec ed in june?
i don't really want to work in gr 4-6 so doing jr seems silly - but i want to do SOMETHING... spec ed is interesting - but i don't want to get stuck in a spec ed job - and also i would want to take the course in north bay--- which means finding somewhere to live for a month... either way i want to do an "epic road trip" which would be nicer if i did it in may... just cuz i have no plans for may yet and can leave for the entire month (despite having no money...) i'm feeling pushed towards spec ed - but i don't know...
another issue:
do i try to find a job in ontario / quebec / alberta / australia / new zealand / the uk / bc / somewhere else???
if i get a job in multiple places where do i go to?

too much - too many circles... feels like i'm constantly chasing my tail or whatever a more human related metaphor is...

anyways - i'm off to plan some rockin lessons for macbeth