i don't know what i'm thinking right now. huge blast from the past. jumping in the mosh pit. moved to the back now instead of in the thick of things - but jumping none the less. flashing back the last 4 years. looking at how things changed. looking at how things stayed exactly the same. you have no idea how much i wish i could freeze this moment in time. eliminate the uncertainty of finding new people or scarier yet eliminating the certainty of finding new people. i think i'm worried about doing this again... getting close to people and then having to leave or break the bonds... having to do the uncertainty of a new place again.

in other news. went on a road trip this weekend. rory, and christina accompanied me. we walked the length of sauble beach freezing ps... then slept in a tent in the freezing cold - woke up to SNOW!!!! then walked to big bay, sat and skipped stones for a while (relates to the flashing memories seen above) then walked the length of wasaga beach - also freezing ps.

i'm a contemplative mess at the moment. but i must mull over this while i sleep as i work at 5am tomoro.

good night.